I made a big decision a few months ago. It was a decision that was so easy to make at the time. It was a decision that I am now realizing is changing my whole entire life. This decision is changing my mindset every day. This decision, that was so easy to make, has also been difficult to act upon at times. What was this decision, you might ask?

This decision was to give Him everything.

Are you serious, Bella? You have been saved for how long and still have not given Him everything?? Apparently not!

What I have not fully given Him are the things that still bring me comfort, affirmation, and security. The little habits and routines I do that avoid the Lord from fully being My Everything are the very things I am giving Him. These are the things that are keeping me from giving God my full trust.

Once I told the Lord that I will give Him everything that keeps Him from fully being My Vine and my Source, He has been revealing SO much in my life that I still depend on for comfort, security, or affirmation.

This may seem a bit much to you and some would even call it “too radical”. I can totally understand that. But I have met this Man for myself. I have walked with Him daily and I have learned that this man named “Jesus” is the most trustworthy man I have ever met. He is the most wonderful, most kind, most gentle, and most compassionate. I have come to learn that what this Man did for me on that cross and the path he suffered for me, makes laying my entire life down, easy.

I know this process of cutting out and letting go is not easy. In fact, I was experiencing the uneasiness of it after a while. I began getting distracted and overwhelmed by the questions and doubts that came with letting things go. Then suddenly a phrase replayed in my mind: “look to the hills”. I looked up. I switched my gaze to The One who helps me and strengthens.

“I will lift up my eyes to the hills— From whence comes my help? My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭121:1-2

In this journey as I lay things down and allow myself to be unraveled, I will look to the hills. I will search for my comfort, my affirmation, and my security. I will find it only in the Lord, the creator of Heaven and Earth.

Thank you for reading, family!